Well, I guess it all depends on how I look at things. When I go to bed at night and ask him to watch over me and those who I care for, I am able to imagine a hundred Guardian Angels descending from the Heavens to stand watch over those who I love and care for, to protect them and bring them peace as they sleep through the night and into the following day. And when I awaken and praise his glory in the gathering light of day, thanking him for giving me another day on this earth, I ask that he again, watch over those same people and aid them as much as possible; I ask to enter into the hearts of my children and my friends and neighbors who do not know Him, to whisper in their ears his love for them!
Does God really hear me when I thank him for the food I have, for not allowing me to go hungry or to thirst? Does He hear me thank Him for the roof over my head and the clothes on my back? And does He hear me when I thank Him for those Angels on earth who he has brought into my life and who unconditionally comes to rescue me when I feel overwhelmed and all alone in a world where it seems no one cares anymore about their fellow man? And does He hear me when I ask Him for just a little more strength and a little better Health so I can do a couple of things about the house that others take for granted?
Sometimes I think He hears me and sometimes I think He doesn’t. I wonder sometimes why God refuses to give me a break and for just a little while, allow me a night when I do not worry about how I am going to afford certain things that are really needed not things that are wanted! There is so much stuff collapsing in, burying me deeper and deeper; I cry out at night and like Job, I keep my faith, but I ask - I beg, Dear God - why don’t you hear me, why will you not answer me!?
Perhaps He punishes me for my faith not being strong enough, I don't know - I know that those little things I ask for from Him go unanswered - If He punishes me, then so be it - I will not love Him or believe in Him any Less...Maybe there will come a time when He will hear me and will let me have those little things needed to make my Life a little happier, a little easier. I am sorry God for sounding a bit selfish...
Does God really hear me? I wonder if He hears me now!
